Ever since a "mom" let her child be returned to Russia by himself on a plane allegedly without notice, the adoption community is especially judgemental of adoption disruption. We seem to now assume the worst of the family or the child or both. As an adoptive mom, I certainly never want to see an adoption be disrupted, but I think we are too tough on families and children who are experiencing a disruption. It seems that we rarely give the families the credit that they deserve.
The adoptive community seems at a consensus that adoption disruption only happens to parents who are not committed to their kids or who don't work hard enough to make it work. However, what if these families are even more committed and are working harder than our own? What is its not about commitment, but about their family's survival? What if its not about the child or the parents? What if we are judging simply out of our own fears about failure? What if a disruption is not a failure, but a last opportunity for a family and a child to get the peace and healing that they need.
Ironically, the same adoption advocates, who will extend all respect and love to a biological parent who chooses to utilize the benefits of adoption, will condemn an adoption disruption without knowing the situation. Is it really fair to an adoptive parent? Is it really fair to an adopted child? It is time for the adoption community to develop a less myopic view of disruption. Parents including myself need to move beyond judgement to helping find resources for families facing tough decisions and for kids needing new families.
If we consider that 2% of the US child population is adopted (1.8 million children)and that disruptions occur in between 1% to 10% of adoptions, then we would realize that this issue is too big and too damaging to ignore with judgement. Plus the rates vary by the age of the child and type of adoption. Needless to say, even at 1% that is 18,000 kids and families who are hurting and need compassionate help in healing. There is an excellent government report that reviews the factors and frequency of disruption in the US. One positive indicator from the study is that disruption rates have dropped since the 1980's and 90's. However, one thing is for sure, condemning families and child(ren) who experience the tragedy and loss of disruption will not solve the problem or promote any one's healing.
As an adoptive community, we need to be advocating for research, resources, support and better options for all families in crisis...biological and adoptive. What if families facing these issues were given 24 hour support staff instead of removing the child or what if children were more truthfully presented by adoption agencies or what if adoptive families had paid adoption leave to promote bonding? Would any of these ideas or numerous others help families? I don't know, but I think a lot of families and children deserve some real answers...not judgement.
Wednesday, March 27, 2013
Tuesday, March 26, 2013
Day 78: Weight Loss Depression
Yes, today was weigh in. Yes, I lost weight. In fact, I crossed the 40 pound weight loss mark.
So why am I depressed?
Well, frankly it is because I have so much more to lose and my weekly loss was the lowest that it has been. I realized that reaching 40 pounds is only 20% of the weight that I have to shed...the knowledge that I let myself get this heavy before taking action is disappointing in and of itself. Just feeling a bit blue...
So why am I depressed?
Well, frankly it is because I have so much more to lose and my weekly loss was the lowest that it has been. I realized that reaching 40 pounds is only 20% of the weight that I have to shed...the knowledge that I let myself get this heavy before taking action is disappointing in and of itself. Just feeling a bit blue...
Adoption: Sibling Return Policy
A mom recently called me with a problem that she was sure was a sign of failure. She cried as she explained that her son wants to send his adoptive sister back to her country of origin. She tearfully went on with her story saying that her son says that his sister has ruined his life and had a list of true indictments including that she breaks his stuff and is mean to him. So I asked a couple critical questions. Did he call her his sister when complaining? Is she actually hurting him physically? Abusively?
The mother explained that he had called her his sister and that her daughter was too little to physically hurt her son. However, she said that her daughter did seem to enjoy getting her brother into trouble and seemed to be pleased when he was angry. I asked if this could be an intense sibling rivalry. She said that is what she thought until her son started asking to return his sister.
Next I asked if their family had ever discussed the "Sibling Return Policy". The mom immediately snapped back, "Well we aren't sending her back! I just want to know what we did wrong? Why hasn't our son bonded with her?"
Now TRUTHFULLY, I almost laughed at her for thinking it was her fault, but I knew she was dead serious so I had to explain myself. I told her that I didn't know of any older sibling who hasn't wanted to return a younger one at least once in their life. It honestly doesn't matter how the family is formed, this is a part of learning to be a family. I explained that the problem comes in when these type of comments can do so much damage to an adopted child who is not secure in the permanency of their family. Some families simply forbid their children from making such comments.
Personally, my kids aren't that well-behaved. They would just make the comments behind my back. Therefore, our family has a "Sibling Return Policy" which basically says, "once you join our family, you are here forever and so are your siblings NO MATTER WHAT. Neither you or your sisters and brothers are going anywhere." Now a word of warning, if you set a policy, it will be tested....creatively, multiple times! I've had kids try to find loop holes like what if they run away or what if they wanted to go live with grandma. One child once asked, what if they hurt a sibling. I said, "You will be punished." Then this same child wanted to know what happened if they killed a sibling...now that question will make your heart race...so I turned the question back, "what do you think would happen?" The child had a better answer than I did AND I know this child AND I know how frustrated they were feeling so we focused on ways to deal with and cope with annoying siblings. Another child once asked me if the policy still held if my hubby and I died! Talk about looking for a loop hole! (I'm hoping I didn't scare this mom who called.)
The bottom line is adoptive families have sibling rivalries the same as biological. Its just that our kids can unleash the emotional equivalent of a nuclear bomb on siblings with attachment difficulties and the kids know it...at least mine do. Therefore, the parent has to neutralize the threat in whatever manner works in their home. Then, like any parent, we wait and watch closely to see if this is a serious problem that might require professional assistance or if this is a typical sibling adjustment issue.
The mother explained that he had called her his sister and that her daughter was too little to physically hurt her son. However, she said that her daughter did seem to enjoy getting her brother into trouble and seemed to be pleased when he was angry. I asked if this could be an intense sibling rivalry. She said that is what she thought until her son started asking to return his sister.
Next I asked if their family had ever discussed the "Sibling Return Policy". The mom immediately snapped back, "Well we aren't sending her back! I just want to know what we did wrong? Why hasn't our son bonded with her?"
Personally, my kids aren't that well-behaved. They would just make the comments behind my back. Therefore, our family has a "Sibling Return Policy" which basically says, "once you join our family, you are here forever and so are your siblings NO MATTER WHAT. Neither you or your sisters and brothers are going anywhere." Now a word of warning, if you set a policy, it will be tested....creatively, multiple times! I've had kids try to find loop holes like what if they run away or what if they wanted to go live with grandma. One child once asked, what if they hurt a sibling. I said, "You will be punished." Then this same child wanted to know what happened if they killed a sibling...now that question will make your heart race...so I turned the question back, "what do you think would happen?" The child had a better answer than I did AND I know this child AND I know how frustrated they were feeling so we focused on ways to deal with and cope with annoying siblings. Another child once asked me if the policy still held if my hubby and I died! Talk about looking for a loop hole! (I'm hoping I didn't scare this mom who called.)
The bottom line is adoptive families have sibling rivalries the same as biological. Its just that our kids can unleash the emotional equivalent of a nuclear bomb on siblings with attachment difficulties and the kids know it...at least mine do. Therefore, the parent has to neutralize the threat in whatever manner works in their home. Then, like any parent, we wait and watch closely to see if this is a serious problem that might require professional assistance or if this is a typical sibling adjustment issue.
Siblings are the people we practice on,
the people who teach us
about fairness and cooperation
and kindness and caring -
quite often the hard way.~~Pamela Dugdale
Monday, March 25, 2013
Honestly, we are prefect..ly flawed
After we reached adoption #3, other parents started calling us for resources and information. Some parents were considering adoption and some had adopted children with challenging issues, but for whatever reason these folks decided to trust us with some very personal information about themselves and their families. At first I was flattered, then I frankly got scared! I mean to mess up with my own family would be tragic, but to lead another's family to bad decisions would be even worse!
I started praying before I answered parents' questions and decided to tell them the full truth about whatever they were asking, even if the answer was uncomfortable. I would pray as I truthfully answered questions about bonding, behaviors, sibling rivialry, food issues, and loss. As I offered resources and my experiences, I discovered that so FEW adoptive families do this with other adoptive and potential adoptive families. Many adoptive families have gotten the message that not only should they keep their individual children's information private, BUT we have moved on to the idea that adoptive families need to act like we are better than biological families! To hear many adoptive families tell it, their families are problem free, fun-filled and their adoptive children are all prodigies that have forgotten the early tramas and losses because of their loving care...to which I say, nonsense! Either they are lying through their teeth or they don't know their child(ren). While I certainly would never want a parent to publicly elaborate on individual kid's problems or behaviors, I would like to see some basic honestly..especially when they are discouraging adoptive families who are facing challenges by making them feel all alone in their issues. Plus even more dangerous, the candy coated stories lead to adoptions by parents who frankly should not adopt!
When someone asks me about an issue that I don't have personal experience with, the first thing I say is something like, "That is tough. I haven't experienced that but I know families who have." Then I try to match them with a family farther along in that struggle who will honestly share their knowledge and resources. I never want to leave a family feeling isolated because so few issues are truly unique, but with everyone keeping their secrets, so many adoptive families feel alone.
When someone asked me a question that I do have experience with, the first thing I say is something like, "I don't discuss this openly because it is so personal to me and my family, but I know you are asking out of need and not nosiness so please keep this conversation between us." Then I go on to explain what I know, how I know it and resources that helped me.
Through my honesty, it is always my hope that the person will realize that adoptive families have unique struggles, but we have unique victories too and most importantly I want parents to know that they are never alone. God is in control. He is soveriegn and He was there with the child when you were not. He knows what they need and He believes in you.
Honestly, our family is not different from any other family. Our family is perfect....perfectly flawed and striving to serve His purpose.
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| Photo of our Nate by Angela Covington |
I started praying before I answered parents' questions and decided to tell them the full truth about whatever they were asking, even if the answer was uncomfortable. I would pray as I truthfully answered questions about bonding, behaviors, sibling rivialry, food issues, and loss. As I offered resources and my experiences, I discovered that so FEW adoptive families do this with other adoptive and potential adoptive families. Many adoptive families have gotten the message that not only should they keep their individual children's information private, BUT we have moved on to the idea that adoptive families need to act like we are better than biological families! To hear many adoptive families tell it, their families are problem free, fun-filled and their adoptive children are all prodigies that have forgotten the early tramas and losses because of their loving care...to which I say, nonsense! Either they are lying through their teeth or they don't know their child(ren). While I certainly would never want a parent to publicly elaborate on individual kid's problems or behaviors, I would like to see some basic honestly..especially when they are discouraging adoptive families who are facing challenges by making them feel all alone in their issues. Plus even more dangerous, the candy coated stories lead to adoptions by parents who frankly should not adopt!
When someone asks me about an issue that I don't have personal experience with, the first thing I say is something like, "That is tough. I haven't experienced that but I know families who have." Then I try to match them with a family farther along in that struggle who will honestly share their knowledge and resources. I never want to leave a family feeling isolated because so few issues are truly unique, but with everyone keeping their secrets, so many adoptive families feel alone.
When someone asked me a question that I do have experience with, the first thing I say is something like, "I don't discuss this openly because it is so personal to me and my family, but I know you are asking out of need and not nosiness so please keep this conversation between us." Then I go on to explain what I know, how I know it and resources that helped me.
Through my honesty, it is always my hope that the person will realize that adoptive families have unique struggles, but we have unique victories too and most importantly I want parents to know that they are never alone. God is in control. He is soveriegn and He was there with the child when you were not. He knows what they need and He believes in you.
Honestly, our family is not different from any other family. Our family is perfect....perfectly flawed and striving to serve His purpose.
God places the lonely in families;
he sets the prisoners free and gives them
joy.~~Psalm 68:6a
Tuesday, March 19, 2013
Day 71: Weigh In
The struggle to eat well and lose weight continues. As of today at the TOPS weigh in, I have lost 38 3/4 pounds. However, I'm feeling hunger again and having some cravings that are making this tough! I cut back to be ready for a family dinner and I think I cut too much so now my body is letting me know. I guess I'll have to be extra careful to eat all the foods that I'm allowed for the next few days to get my diet balanced again.
Leftovers inspired some creative crock pot meals recently...a couple of which we'll be having again.
I had some leftover pizza sauce and some mushrooms that needed used so I threw them in a crock pot with chicken and shrimp and olives. Then it cooked on high for 4 hours and served with brown rice. It was delicious! (Sorry no picture because it went fast and I had no idea that it was going to be so tasty.)
Another evening I tossed chicken in the crock pot with some original Ott's dressing and cooked it until done. It was yummy. I have coated chicken and baked it before, but this tasted even better.
Leftovers inspired some creative crock pot meals recently...a couple of which we'll be having again.
I had some leftover pizza sauce and some mushrooms that needed used so I threw them in a crock pot with chicken and shrimp and olives. Then it cooked on high for 4 hours and served with brown rice. It was delicious! (Sorry no picture because it went fast and I had no idea that it was going to be so tasty.)
Another evening I tossed chicken in the crock pot with some original Ott's dressing and cooked it until done. It was yummy. I have coated chicken and baked it before, but this tasted even better.
Saturday, March 16, 2013
Family Easter Egg Hunt
Today was the Family Easter Egg hunt and lunch at grandma's. The kids were so excited!
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| Waiting to hunt |
Thursday, March 7, 2013
Children!!!
My kids have been a special mix of orneriness and cuteness for the past few weeks. Saying cute things and pushing the limits of mommy's rules have been the daily routine.
CUTE
Matt wants us to buy a "hick-up truck" (a pickup truck). I cannot help but smile each time he shows me a "hick-up truck" that he likes.
The twins currently say the most unexpected things and it always reveals something that they have noticed or a new "plan" to get out of trouble when they break a rule. When Matt was at Grandma's, Luke let me know that Matt had pushed him. When I told him that Matt is not home, Luke quickly said, "I meant Mark". Mark had been drawing pictures quietly at the table (in another room from Luke) said, "Me got a paper. (It) Says me didn't." (Get past the bad grammar and his alibi is pretty solid!)
David went with me on a trip and told someone, "I'm with mom so she can drink and drive." Now before you call the authorities on me, you should know what that REALLY means. We had been to Happy Hour, BUT at Sonic. David was handing me my Sonic ICED TEA from the cup holder on the floorboard while I drove so I didn't have to wait until a stop sign to reach it for a drink....unsweet tea in fact! (Not breaking any laws and NOT even breaking my diet.)
ORNERY
Monday a kid was in the Principal's office for talking back to a teacher. On Tuesday two kids talked back to a bus driver so they went to the Principal's office. Then Wednesday, I discovered that a kid stole money from older sister, used the money and lied about it. My fear of today...Thursday has been huge, but the kids are in bed and no teachers or principals have called. I can tell that Daddy has worked several weekends/nights away from home because these things don't happen when the kids know that Daddy will be handling the discipline. I'm ready for Daddy to be home for Spring break because a dose of Daddy time can end a streak of orneriness!
CUTE
Matt wants us to buy a "hick-up truck" (a pickup truck). I cannot help but smile each time he shows me a "hick-up truck" that he likes.
The twins currently say the most unexpected things and it always reveals something that they have noticed or a new "plan" to get out of trouble when they break a rule. When Matt was at Grandma's, Luke let me know that Matt had pushed him. When I told him that Matt is not home, Luke quickly said, "I meant Mark". Mark had been drawing pictures quietly at the table (in another room from Luke) said, "Me got a paper. (It) Says me didn't." (Get past the bad grammar and his alibi is pretty solid!)
David went with me on a trip and told someone, "I'm with mom so she can drink and drive." Now before you call the authorities on me, you should know what that REALLY means. We had been to Happy Hour, BUT at Sonic. David was handing me my Sonic ICED TEA from the cup holder on the floorboard while I drove so I didn't have to wait until a stop sign to reach it for a drink....unsweet tea in fact! (Not breaking any laws and NOT even breaking my diet.)
ORNERY
Monday a kid was in the Principal's office for talking back to a teacher. On Tuesday two kids talked back to a bus driver so they went to the Principal's office. Then Wednesday, I discovered that a kid stole money from older sister, used the money and lied about it. My fear of today...Thursday has been huge, but the kids are in bed and no teachers or principals have called. I can tell that Daddy has worked several weekends/nights away from home because these things don't happen when the kids know that Daddy will be handling the discipline. I'm ready for Daddy to be home for Spring break because a dose of Daddy time can end a streak of orneriness!
Tuesday, March 5, 2013
40: Day 57 Weigh In
Last week our TOPS meeting was cancelled due to weather so today's weigh in is almost 2 months since I started this healthy life style change. In two weeks I lost 4 1/4 pounds. This brings my total lost to 32 pounds. While I'm pleased with the weight loss, it is discouraging to think how much more weight that I need to lose.
Corrine and Grace have now joined me at TOPS. Corrine has now lost 15 pounds and Grace has lost 11 pounds. So as a group, we have lost an impressive 58 pounds!
Corrine and Grace have now joined me at TOPS. Corrine has now lost 15 pounds and Grace has lost 11 pounds. So as a group, we have lost an impressive 58 pounds!
Wednesday, February 20, 2013
40 & Cranky? Got Iron?
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I started today with a multivitamin with Iron. Then I went to TOPS and found out that I had lost 3.75 pounds this week. Needless to say that was an encouraging start to my day so I'm not sure if the Iron or the weight loss improved my mood. BUT I think I know lots more people who may need some Iron!
Saturday, February 16, 2013
40: Day 40 is here!
Day 40 is not a great day. Hubby is at debate AGAIN so its the kids and I. Matt was packed and ready to go to Grandma's at 6am, but I was able to hold him off until early afternoon so Grandma could do her morning shopping and hair appointment. The twins were especially busy getting into things, writing on walls, and leaving a trail behind them. When I finally took Matt, Grace and David to Grandma's, I had the twins and Nate ride along and Corrine worked on putting the house back together.
This was one of those days that made me wonder why Ed has to work so far from home and for so many Saturdays in a row. Why can't we find a home in Kansas or him find a job in Missouri? We haven't had us time except a few dinners in over 8 months. I am truly emotionally exhausted right now. Too many days of the kids seeing hubby for less than 2 hours a day. Too much extra financial stress from the increasing gas prices costing $120 a week for his gas to/from work. Not to mention my gas to appointment's and teaching. Too much time with just me and the kids. Too much work that I need to wrap up for the office, but always the constant interruptions and running to appointments. The kids had 5 medical appointments this week and 7 doctor appointments next week. Yes, day 40 is here and its one of the worst days that I've had in months! I'm exhausted emotionally and I don't see a break in my future.
This was one of those days that made me wonder why Ed has to work so far from home and for so many Saturdays in a row. Why can't we find a home in Kansas or him find a job in Missouri? We haven't had us time except a few dinners in over 8 months. I am truly emotionally exhausted right now. Too many days of the kids seeing hubby for less than 2 hours a day. Too much extra financial stress from the increasing gas prices costing $120 a week for his gas to/from work. Not to mention my gas to appointment's and teaching. Too much time with just me and the kids. Too much work that I need to wrap up for the office, but always the constant interruptions and running to appointments. The kids had 5 medical appointments this week and 7 doctor appointments next week. Yes, day 40 is here and its one of the worst days that I've had in months! I'm exhausted emotionally and I don't see a break in my future.
Friday, February 15, 2013
40: Day 39 Not the Friday I Wanted
This Friday I had appointments in Jefferson City so I left at 5am with the twins and Nate. Then I took them to Grandma's house along the way. I finally picked them up and got home around 6pm. I was greeted by Matt who was ready for his turn at Grandma's. This was not exactly the first thing that I wanted to do after driving so much today. I was hoping for dinner out with hubby and then some grocery shopping, but hubby had volunteered to work on a computer. So I took Grace grocery shopping and convinced Matt to wait until tomorrow to go to Grandma's house. In the end, the groceries weren't put away until after 11:30pm so it was just a long tiring day.
Thursday, February 14, 2013
40: Day 37 & 38
Wednesday and Thursday were a little less hectic because there was no flight school on Valentine's Day. I still had to go to Branson on Wednesday, and this week Corrine and I also visited the dentist.
I made a huge dinner on Valentine's with a little bit of everything for each kid's favorites and hubby's favorite steak. I also tried a new grilled onions recipe. It was a big hit so we'll be making that steak topping again.
Day 40 is almost here and on Day 42 I visit the doctor again for a check up so I'll get the official doctor weigh in. I had expected to complete more projects in these 40 days, but I'm pleased with what I did get done.
I made a huge dinner on Valentine's with a little bit of everything for each kid's favorites and hubby's favorite steak. I also tried a new grilled onions recipe. It was a big hit so we'll be making that steak topping again.
Day 40 is almost here and on Day 42 I visit the doctor again for a check up so I'll get the official doctor weigh in. I had expected to complete more projects in these 40 days, but I'm pleased with what I did get done.
Tuesday, February 12, 2013
Day 36: Weigh-in
Well, weigh in today was disappointing for me. I lost only 2 1/2 pounds. So as you can guess, I'm taking this week super serious. I need a bigger loss next week!
Not much news today, other than taking the kids to Springfield for their orthotics appointment. We were disappointed there too because we learned that our favorite orthotist is retiring in August. Change is tough.
BTW-If you did not see this on Facebook, please share it with others who you think may know the person that we are seeking for Jon.
JOB OPENING: As of around April 1st we will be needing a new aid for Jon. Amber insists on getting married and Jon is going to miss her terribly so we need a replacement as awesome as Amber. 36-40 hours per week. Pay is through an agency so its not a cash job. The Jon smiles are better than the pay!
Not much news today, other than taking the kids to Springfield for their orthotics appointment. We were disappointed there too because we learned that our favorite orthotist is retiring in August. Change is tough.
BTW-If you did not see this on Facebook, please share it with others who you think may know the person that we are seeking for Jon.JOB OPENING: As of around April 1st we will be needing a new aid for Jon. Amber insists on getting married and Jon is going to miss her terribly so we need a replacement as awesome as Amber. 36-40 hours per week. Pay is through an agency so its not a cash job. The Jon smiles are better than the pay!
Monday, February 11, 2013
Day 35: Another Weigh In Day Eve
Yes, tomorrow is weigh in day and as usual I'm starting to worry about a number on a scale, that so many reminded me last week, really shouldn't matter. However, for me, the number is important because it is my proof to myself that this is working so as usual I'm wondering if I should have done more exercise or ate more lean meats...I'm kind of tired of fish and chicken.
Tonight I made two 3 pound Mediterranean pork tenderloin and served them on a bed of seasoned mustard greens and drizzled with balsamic reduction. Then I served whole grain brown rice as side. It was all so tasty, but if the scales are not kind tomorrow, then I'm thinking that I should have had baked fish again.
Nate fell asleep with the remote in his hand last night. I had to laugh at his grip on it even while he was sleeping.
Tonight I made two 3 pound Mediterranean pork tenderloin and served them on a bed of seasoned mustard greens and drizzled with balsamic reduction. Then I served whole grain brown rice as side. It was all so tasty, but if the scales are not kind tomorrow, then I'm thinking that I should have had baked fish again.Nate fell asleep with the remote in his hand last night. I had to laugh at his grip on it even while he was sleeping.
Sunday, February 10, 2013
40: Weekend Days 32, 33 & 34
This weekend was all that I had expected. I spent all of Friday trying to get my calendar organized and double checking that all the routine check-ups had been set up. Friday night was a quiet evening, and it was an early bedtime since Ed had to leave at 4:15am to go to the tournament.
Saturday without Daddy was hectic. The twins and Nate were ready for Daddy time, and he was at the tournament for work. Grace and Corrine did their best to try to offer Daddy type activities to wear them out. It helped that David and Matt went to visit Grandma and Grand-dad so it was just the 3 four year olds trying to overthrow the balance of power. Our newest struggle with one of my little guys is about underwear. He wants to go commando, and I say no! I had to set a new rule that "Underwear is required at the table." Then at dinner his brother came and pulled down his pants to show me that he had his underwear on...so obviously my new rule has some disadvantages. LOL!
Sunday I was exhausted so Ed let me sleep in. For dinner, I made two 4+ pound London Broil with roasted herb potatoes and carrots. Much to my surprise, our kids loved it. There was no leftovers to put away, which means that some kids ate a pound or more of beef!
I've stuck to my diet and even made a balsamic reduction in preparation for next weeks meals. I'm trying to prepare more and more of "my" kind of foods for the kids. Some of it has been well received and some hasn't. So far Hannah has liked more of the "healthified" foods than anyone else, and I appreciate her willingness to try these foods!
Saturday without Daddy was hectic. The twins and Nate were ready for Daddy time, and he was at the tournament for work. Grace and Corrine did their best to try to offer Daddy type activities to wear them out. It helped that David and Matt went to visit Grandma and Grand-dad so it was just the 3 four year olds trying to overthrow the balance of power. Our newest struggle with one of my little guys is about underwear. He wants to go commando, and I say no! I had to set a new rule that "Underwear is required at the table." Then at dinner his brother came and pulled down his pants to show me that he had his underwear on...so obviously my new rule has some disadvantages. LOL!
Sunday I was exhausted so Ed let me sleep in. For dinner, I made two 4+ pound London Broil with roasted herb potatoes and carrots. Much to my surprise, our kids loved it. There was no leftovers to put away, which means that some kids ate a pound or more of beef!
I've stuck to my diet and even made a balsamic reduction in preparation for next weeks meals. I'm trying to prepare more and more of "my" kind of foods for the kids. Some of it has been well received and some hasn't. So far Hannah has liked more of the "healthified" foods than anyone else, and I appreciate her willingness to try these foods!
Thursday, February 7, 2013
40: Busy Days 30 and 31
Wednesdays and Thursdays are typically so busy and tiring that they seem like one long day with a nap. My Wednesday night class ends in early March so only a few more weeks of this Super Woman pace. I love teaching and I'm glad I can take Grace to her flight lessons, but the two back-to-back really wear me down.
Starting some exercise finally, after all I'm in the last 10 days of my 40 day trial so I need to get moving on doing all that I had planned. I'm starting simple with just standing on my on leg a few minutes each hour or so and doing some stretches each day. I figure its a good start to building back up stamina for using my crutches for longer distances, plus the standing is a nice stretch break during hours of paperwork.
BTW-Tried Culvers healthy menu items roast beef sandwich and side salad in Branson. I really am not much of a meat eater, but I thought the pot roast was tough, dry and flavorless. I think they need to borrow my crock pot! So needless to say, Culvers did not make me a repeat customer.
Starting some exercise finally, after all I'm in the last 10 days of my 40 day trial so I need to get moving on doing all that I had planned. I'm starting simple with just standing on my on leg a few minutes each hour or so and doing some stretches each day. I figure its a good start to building back up stamina for using my crutches for longer distances, plus the standing is a nice stretch break during hours of paperwork.
BTW-Tried Culvers healthy menu items roast beef sandwich and side salad in Branson. I really am not much of a meat eater, but I thought the pot roast was tough, dry and flavorless. I think they need to borrow my crock pot! So needless to say, Culvers did not make me a repeat customer.
Tuesday, February 5, 2013
40: Day 29 Weigh In
Oh the big weigh in day has come. I lost 3 3/4 pound again which is encouraging. It brings my weight loss total to 21 1/2 pounds in 29 days. Today's loss certainly counts as encouragement from the scales! However, then my day was filled with errands, making dinner and trying to finish preparing for class tomorrow night. I am exhausted and rather grumpy so I think an early bedtime is my priority tonight. Vanessa is rather grumpy too and I think both of us over did it today while enjoying the great weather and sunshine.
Monday, February 4, 2013
Weigh in's Eve: Day 28
I need the scales to reward me with a weekly loss to keep me motivated. So on this weigh in's eve, I can't think of anything I would change except the sushi that I ate with the mystery nutritional value. Therefore, as I close out this day, I'm praying for a big loss this week!
Sunday, February 3, 2013
A Weekend in My Forties: Day 26 & 27
This weekend is the last weekend that hubby is home for the next month and a half. Its time to take his students to tournaments again. However, he had to go take care of exchange student details on Saturday so I guess my saturdays alone with the kids actually started 2 weekends ago. I hate it that we live so far from his job and his tounament days start and end 2 hours before/after everyone elses. I am thankful that he has a job he loves, but this is the time of year that it starts getting tough. The boys really need the discipline that he can demand simply with the tone of his voice and I really need alone time with him too.
It seems like there is always kids needing rides, going to activities and needing us that we seem to forget that we need time for each other. Plus there are routine distractions of life such as TV, computer, telephone, etc that can reduce time together even further. Grace has graciously given Ed and I time to go out for a late dinner each of the last few Fridays. It has been nice, but it also has highlighted how we need to plan a weekend away again. However, that must wait as usual.
Grace and I did get some time together Saturday evening which was very nice. Grace loves sushi so after shopping, we ate sushi. It was interesting on a diet because I'm not sure of the dietary exchanges for some of the "stuff" we ate because I'm not sure what all of it was. Anyone have a dietary guide to sushi? I'm hoping that it won't effect my weight loss!
Sunday was a day of distractions and unexpected chores. I really hate days like that, but it is especially cruel when its a Sunday. I'm feeling robbed of my recharge day. Next weekend will be better!
Grace and I did get some time together Saturday evening which was very nice. Grace loves sushi so after shopping, we ate sushi. It was interesting on a diet because I'm not sure of the dietary exchanges for some of the "stuff" we ate because I'm not sure what all of it was. Anyone have a dietary guide to sushi? I'm hoping that it won't effect my weight loss!
Sunday was a day of distractions and unexpected chores. I really hate days like that, but it is especially cruel when its a Sunday. I'm feeling robbed of my recharge day. Next weekend will be better!
Friday, February 1, 2013
Forty's First February
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| 2 weeks before turning 20 years old; Helping at the Women's Shelter |
My twenties were all about me....getting to know myself through new adventures, reaching for my dreams, and trying to evaluate and decide things based on my twenty some years of experience being sheltered. I started my twenties focused on missions but that door wasn't opening. My disability scared foreign mission groups and for the first time my disability really scared me. I looked around the university at lots of folks with disabilities with degrees and coming back for more degrees and more classes because they couldn't find employers to give them a chance. Then a small volunteer job at a rescue mission in Springfield turned into a bigger volunteer job and ultimately into a real job. I was relieved. Not only was I doing the mission work that I had felt called to,but I was getting job experience.
The mission was an experience that couldn't be replicated. I learned so much about the complexities of life issues and the simplicity of trusting Jesus to fix the complex. I had asked Christ to be Lord of my life and to let me serve His purposes as a very young child, but the mission is where I found the power that God has to transform lives, if we ask Him to help us. Unfortunately, I cannot say that I realized my own need to rely of His power yet because like most twenty somethings I had lots of energy, ideas, ideals and plans. (Yep, I was "that" annoying.)
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| Our family right after Hannah home. I probably should have worked on her smiling for the camera before we got this taken. |
The rest of my thirties are rather obvious in our family picture. We went from 2 daughters to 4 daughters and 6 sons! Not bad for one decade! However, all joking aside. The Lord let me be a part of the most miraculous kids lives. Each one building my understanding of and reliance on God's power. I can remember praying for so many of the kids to learn to trust us as their new parents. I can remember praying at night for Nate to take another breath when he was so sick an there was often long pauses between his noisy deep gasping breaths. So many prayers and so many amazing answers.
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| My favorite crew in my favorite vehicle. |
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